dude...I SO had something interesting to talk about. MANNNN!!! Ok today Troy was bein real screwed up...and he actually has been a lot lately. I kinda hope he reads this, but I don't care enough to juss tell him. Like any time I wanted to talk about something he'd be like "I don't care" or "...JOE.....shutup..." or "JOE!! I dooon't care" crap like that. Screwed up dude...I mean, it's fine if he doesn't wanna hear what I hafta say, but don't hang around me n crap. Don't talk to me if ur not gonna listen. Don't expect me to be all friendly when ur like that. I feel this close (holds up fingers real close) to bein a loner at my school. I do have aquaintances, I do have people that I can have a good time with...it's juss...they ignore me when their other friends are nearby. Maybe I should try to hang out with some other group the rest of the year. Maybe I should juss be a loner and listen to music all alone every break and lunch. Maybe I should juss keep doin what I've been doing. I wish it'd stop raining so I could sit at our little bench thingy...lay my head on my arms and juss lay there silent all lunch and think. I kinda enjoyed that.

I feel depression sinking in...I'm gonna go learn a song on guitar now, do my essay that's due tomorrow, take a shower, then go to sleep. Bye

oh...I know my Journal has been pretty boring lately, but deal with it. I hafta deal with being all sad-like and having tons of pressure on me every day, so you can deal with reading this piece of crap.