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I've been told to write more...so I'm gonna try to force some crap out...
Got a headache. I've been gettin em for a whiiiile now, and all the time. Not like once or twice a week or anything. I can't remember the last day I didn't have a headache. It's been a few months prolly. I think it's sleep deprivation. I've been tryin to get some more sleep lately, but it isn't workin out to swell. I'm usually on the phone or talkin online and I don't realize how late it is. Sometimes i'm juss sittin there playin guitar or some crap, and I juss lose track of time. Friggen Headeaches suck dude. They make me all irritable...And when i'm irritable, I can't show emotion, I'm not usually happy, I'm prolly a jerk more often, and crap like that.
I think there might be more to my unhappiness n irritability tho...I haven't been doing much of things I enjoy lately. For the most part, my days go like so--Wake up, get ready, go to school, come back from school, dick around n talk on the phone n online, go to sleep--That isn't so great of a day. I don't really do stuff i like to do...I don't really socialize, don't hang out with friends, don't shoot crap (cuz the guns are a tad mussed up), Don't play video games, Hardly listen to music, I kinda stopped bein all that interested in updating my site n stuff, buncha crap I'd like to do.
I do enjoy certain parts of my life tho...Bein wit Christina (Oh so Awesome), talkin on da phone or online with Christina (very nice), I play the guitar a lil, The golf team is actually fun (Cuz I goof off n crap wit whoever is around), I like the very few times I hang out with friends, that's about it tho. I get home at like 3:00 every day and juss waste away all the time. I never really do anything. It's usually juss procrastinating and NOT doing things, like homework and chores n crap. Maybe this is why i'm not all that happy. MAN it's hard to say that. Cuz, it's mostly true...but it's really wrong too. Like....ok....Juss about my whole life sucks, cept everything with my Insanely Awesome Girlfriend. Christina makes me soooooo happy. Everything havin ta do with her is GREAT. So, my life is kinda both seriously screwed up and SOoOoOOo great right now. If it wasn't for Christina, I would be so depressed right now. This sucks. Even when I am real happy, I still have my crappy life in the back of my mind bringing me down. I am juss about always nervous. I know I'm forgetting to do stuff. I know I have projects and homework to do. I know I'm gonna end up wasting my days and doing the same thing i've been doin. SCHOOL, DICK AROUND, SLEEP. friggen sucks.
It's about 8:00 right now, and I started this thing at 6:45. I haven't really done anything since then, or even....since I got home. Haha, I shaved. I talked on the phone......
Isn't it great how I came into this with nothing on my mind, nothing to write about.
What I'm gonna do about my unhappinessness
- RRREALLY try to go to sleep earlier
- Try to do my homework in a short, timely manner when I get home every day
- When I'm done with my homework, Do stuff I like to do
- Try to do crap with friends on the weekend
