This is not cool. Every time I wanna write I feel like crap lately. lalalal...Don't feel like I fit in anywhere anymore.......feel like everyone but MAYBE a couple people would act like they cared if I died, then they'd forget about it the week after. I wish It was a while into the future and that I was doing something for a living that I enjoyed. Wish I had freinds again like I used to. Wish I still knew how to have fun. I need to get fricken troy over and we need to watch pootie tang and hit eachother with sticks or something. Iono.....I need a pickup. I need to remember who I am and what I like to do. I mean seriously, I forgot I liked fire. That's just wrong. When was the last time I shot coke cans and torched a box with gasoline in the driveway? FOREVER ago. I really don't like school anymore. The only reason I don't just sit in a corner and rot away in my free time there is because I can hang around Christina and her friends. I feel so out of place in her group (nothing against her or her friends), but I can't think of anywhere else to go. I'm also scared. I keep getting this feeling that I'm annoying people ALOT lately. My mom, my "friends", My Dad, Jamie, Krista, Christina, Justin (him since i stopped goin to school with him), pretty much anyone I talk to anymore. I hardly talk cuz I feel like I'm an idiot half the time when I do speak up. WOOOPS....I just remembered I was supposed to call Kaereanne back today. I guess I will tomorrow if I remember.... Anyway, Enough of the me complaining thing. I want a good guitar and a nice amp head and cab. After that? Well by the time I get that crap I hope I will be muuuuuch better playin guitar cuza d lessons i'm gonna start taking soon. After that....I wanna meet some Awesome people who are also great mucisians.....start a band....And either juss mess around with that and have fun while goin through HS and College, or make it into a career. Even though I know the 1 and a half people that will read this don't care, I think I'm gonna put up some pictures and links to the guitar stuff I've been looking into.