G-d, damn it to hell.
I believe my life will continue to suck and I will continue to be unhappy until I have more control of it. I'll probably get to a point where I can finally deal with myself and be happy on a consistent basis.......just to find out soon afterwards that Christina wants to leave me cuz i'm a failure in her eyes. I hate my life and I hate this horribly corrupt world I live in. God, why am I here? Why must I be punished in this way? Why can't you help me and just take it all away? My own parents don't know a thing about me past a few things I like and maybe my favorite color. They don't actually KNOW me. They don't know my attitude, how I work, how I think, what goes on inside me... but they think they do. They think they know everything, but they know next to nothing. I am frustrated beyond belief and I just want out. If I didn't care so much about you, and I didn't care so much about Christina and a couple other people, I'd probably kill myself. Everyone keeps saying "maybe we should go to a psychiatrist, maybe you need to get back on your medication, maybe you're depressed and need medication." Problems are not solved by drugs, they are just covered. I am a horrible, horrible, horrible piece of human and do not deserve your love, grace, or help... but I need all of it. I cannot exist much longer like this without giving up. I have a suspicious feeling that after I have given up in my soul...my body will follow soon after. In other news: I feel like I may be getting back in touch with my punkish side... I feel the urge to wear dark things with spikes on them. I wanna get back to the spike bracelet/pimp watch on my left arm...I'm liking the ring thing too, its workin on me. This summer, hopefully I still have this I wanna dress punkish attitude, and can get a buncha money towards black and red t-shirts, dark jeans, and many many decorative spikes. My hair shall just stay curly, hopefully it will actually get curly soon, instead of just poofy. I think its because of leftover damaged hair from the bleachness. Anyways...
- posted by Joebo @ 1:10:00 AM

 
so i suck

I suck, deal with it. This site really really sucks. I pretended to actually update it a while...a few times... You suck. Most things suck. Meh.

- posted by Joebo @ 11:07:00 PM

 
Mehhh

So yeah...my life is interesting. Lately I'm not having the best days or anything...but I guess I'm fine. I seriously don't care if I make a lot of money or anything. I just wanna have enough to support my wife, my kids, and I. Everything else is just extra. I could deal with having a low-wage job as long as I really enjoy it. For example, I would love being a school teacher or a guitar teacher. Yeah I'm done for now.

- posted by Joebo @ 7:48:00 PM

 
Christmas

Christmas was coo. Yet another year where nobody mentions the birth of Christ, but yeah....that's just how it goes now I guess. I got cool stuff, I gave a buncha stuff (finally), all that good crap. Tons of great food. Tons of fun family stuffs. I got to drive my self to the multiple places I needed to be this year tho, so that was very different. I also got less gifts, but ones of better quality tho. They show I am different from everyone else too. I didn't just get gift cards, money, crap I directly asked for, and lame clothes that anyone would wear. I got stuff that people, just knowing me and what I do, would like and use.
- posted by Joebo @ 11:18:24 PM

 
Christmas Vacation Plans

So, plans for Christmas vacation: See Christina, go to Robert's, homework, Christmas.

- posted by Joebo @ 6:22:20 PM

 
Roberts crap
HA! robert begins his reign of terror on Joe's Journal. Keeping in suit with the attitude of this site, im going to immitate joe. How you ask? watch and learn: MAN!!!! MY LIFE SUCKS. I HATE EVERYONE AND IM DEPRESSED AND MEH. BUT I HAVE CHRISTINA...SO EVERYTHING IS COOL. YEA BLABLABLABLABLABLA I WISH I HAD A NEW GUITAR BLA BLA BLA. EVERYONE HATES ME. BLA BLA BLA SANTA TERESA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA STUPID ROBERT BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA. I DONT KNOW IF I CAN GO ON WITH LIFE BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA. so untill next time.
- posted by Handsome Rob @ 11:32:37 PM

 
Meh.

I haven't written anything in A WHILE. I juss am cuz I'm on my blogger account to help Robert with something. Anyway, life is OK. Incredibly great at times, Excrutiatingly horrible at times. Sucks and Rocks. Both at the same time is kinda weird. Anyway.....maybe I'll be writing again more. Iono.

- posted by Joebo @ 10:35:52 PM